Monday, September 30, 2013

Fall into fall!

"Autumn..the year's last, loveliest smile."
    William Cullen Bryant

     I love summer, I always have. Summer to me is the very best season, it is pools and cook outs and the feel of warmth on your skin. I grew up in Arizona so the change of seasons wasn't as defined a change as it is in Ohio. When we moved here it took me a while to really enjoy the seasons but now I realize the change of seasons are so very important.
     My summer this year was a busy one because I was blessed to be home all summer with the birth of my second child. This was the summer my two year old smelled of sun screen and that smell became my favorite scent. I marveled at how the sun was giving her natural highlights and how cute she looked wearing her floaties. I learned to push a double stroller, play on a slide, swing a swing and snuggle a newborn, at the same time.
    This summer I learned more about myself as a mommy and I learned more about my mommy friends. I played in the pool and had play dates at the park. I spent time with friends who renewed my strength and shared funny stories. I got to spend hours with my mom, just talking. We had more honest conversations than we have ever had and I enjoyed every single one. By becoming a mother for the second time I have learned and understood more about my mom than ever before. I do not know how I would have made it through those first few weeks without her strength.
The change is more poignant this year than ever because it is more than the air getting cooler and the leaves changing color. It was me moving my daughter's clothes from the months to the T's. Packing away the newborn stuff and bringing out the slightly bigger clothes for my baby. The first time I packed away my newborn clothes I knew in my heart that I would unpack them again. This time I carefully folded each piece and took a minute to hold and smell my favorites, this would be the last time I unfolded those outfits in anticipation of bringing home a new baby.
    With the birth of our second daughter I watched my Abby become a big sister and with this she gained independence from her mommy. My heart swells at the sound of her talking to her sister and then breaks when I realize that she is all of a sudden saying and doing more things and I can’t always pinpoint when the change happened. It’s in these moments I wish time would freeze so I wouldn't miss anymore little changes.
     For my friends this fall had different meanings. I saw one friend put her daughter on the bus for her very first day of kindergarten.  She picked out clothes and a back pack, bought stuff for lunches and school supplies. The girls and I walked to the bus stop that first day to cheer on our sweet neighbor and to be supportive to her mommy.  I have known this particular little girl almost all of her life so watching her hitch up her back pack and climb onto the bus was hard. When the bus pulled away and her mommy started crying it hit me that soon, this would be me.  A few more changes of season and I will be walking my first baby to the bus stop and I will feel the same emotion that I witnessed in my friend.

This time I want to watch the leaves change instead of being surprised by the turn in color, I want to pick pumpkins and go to festivals. I want to embrace the fall and realize that summer was one of my most memorable seasons but it was also one of my hardest. I want a million more days like the one we had this weekend.  This weekend time moved at a good pace and the most important thing we had to do was watch our 2 year old play in the hay and walk in a corn maze. I snapped 100 pictures that day but the moments I didn't catch on film will always be with me. When we put the girls to bed that day my husband and I said the same thing, it was a good fall day!

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

About Me

My Name Is Stephanie and I am the mom to two wonderful little girls and 
A wife to my very good looking husband
Here are some things about me that are good, weird and some things I need to change.

I used to be super organized and then realized being a mommy lends to a little disorganization
I like when my house is clean but won't clean if it means not having playtime with my 2 year old
Working on sleep schedules is my obsession.
I love Saturday mornings when there is no hurry to go anywhere and building blocks is a priority
I can't wait for my little girls to watch Disney movies
The smile of my infant makes me heart burst

I watch Footloose every time its on television
I cry at Steel Magnolias no matter how many times I have seen it
The minions on Despicable Me give me the giggles
I still have my cassete tape of Tiffany and if I could I would listen to it, all the time.
I think I am a good dancer and have seen video to prove that I am not
I dance regardless

I am not creative but I like to try and be creative, the result is rarely good
I worry a lot and sometimes my worries are a little outlandish
When my husband tells me my worries are outlandish, I act a little insulted!

I want my daughters to think I am brave and strong and I worry that instead they will see my flaws.

Happily ever after is the last page in a book but I always wonder what happens when the next part comes and vows are spoken, children are born and life really gets crazy.
I know for me that all those things are the best part of life and make me feel
Happily Ever Rushed!

Sunday, September 22, 2013

A Little bit of faith!

“There's no point having wishes if you don't at least try to do them”

 I am a working mom who has decided to stop wishing about being a blogger and finally give it a try
I am a friend who wants to reach out and make a difference or offer support
I want to share all the big and little things my girls do that make me laugh, cry or just melt my heart.
I want to find or create new recipes for my two year old that she actually likes and wants to eat
I want to get out of bed every day and not feel like I have to hit the ground running
I want to be one of those moms who does cool crafts with her kids

I want my baby to sleep in a crib but then I don't want to rush it because part of me knows that I am not ready. I can hear her breathing at night and with that comes peace of mind that for just a little while longer ts okay if she stays sleeping next to my bed.

I would love to take pictures with my fancy new camera, but I haven’t read the whole manual
I want to make something amazing every night for dinner and wow my husband!

This is a big world of bloggers and I am hoping to find my niche or make my mark because..

Last year when I was pregnant with my second child and we had standard tests that came back questionable I stumbled into this world of blogs where some were funny and some gave tips but, the ones I came across and the ones I needed were the ones that gave me faith.
Faith to know that things would work out no matter the results of further testing were
 The comfort of knowing  that when I was feeling very terrified and alone someone had also been through it and then put it out there for others to read and learn from. I wish I could tell those moms that they touched my life so deeply and made me able to take a deep breath thru the waiting and the wishing.

I am hoping to pay it forward and that someone stumbles across my blog and finds a laugh, a recipe, a book recommendation or most importantly a little bit of faith.